This is a poem I wrote before my successful operation. It’s based upon my fear for that day being my last. This piece is available on all digital stores.
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Last Day:
Surgery in a couple of hours
Let my body go under and let doc hold all the power
Ye said it best no man can hold all that power
Dear doc you got a young king in your hands
Don’t let your hands slip
Cause once I’m gone there’s no coming back
If it’s my last day
I want the stage to know that I wanted to get on top of you, pause
But no matter the cause
I just felt like I didn’t have the balls
Always been shy in new places
In front of new faces
I was scared that the faces will make me mess up again
That was then
If I wake up, your going to be at the top of my list
If it’s my last day
Tell my pops that I went out trying to do the best for myself
Something I wasn’t good at in high school
Your words led me to grabbing the tool
And attempting to see if god wanted his son earlier than expected
I guess it wasn’t time for this soul to be rested
If it’s my last day tell my favorite cousin
That death isn’t the cure for her pain
It’s closure, don’t be scared to get that closure you need
I hope when I get up here
I don’t see you in a year
Beat your fears
If it’s my last day
Tell my mom I love her
And I know I hurt her
While chasing this dream of being smaller
It was something I felt I needed to be successful
If it’s my last day
Tell my sis
That the bills
Will end one day don’t let them stress you
Also stop downing yourself
Your beautiful on the inside and out
If it’s my last day
Tell my bro
His new job going take him a long way
And even though I was older
I looked up to you some times
You made me want to chase my dreams
If it’s my last day
Tell my Gg I’m going to miss her
I’ll always be with her when she watching those movies
If it’s my last day
Tell My homies don’t let those bills take them down
Y’all are kings hold up your head and put on your crowns
One day you going be up but you got to go through the storm to get to the sun light
If it’s my last day
Let my fam know I love them
Even if I barely talk to them
If it’s my last day
Just know the motto is forever History In The Making
If it’s my last day
Remember me as a King
Forget that let me wake up
Lord Jesus I got a plan
I got a couple of plans
I use to say I wanted death
But death to this weight
Because it was the one I hate
Shout/ out to the happy big guys
I just couldn’t be that
Tried it for a little
It just wasn’t in me
Let me wake up
I want to rebuild myself
The way I wanted
I took life for granted
Let me change that and be the man this time
Let me Rise G
Let me Rise G
