Almost 24: Feel like I won’t make it to my 24th I mean, who actually gives a shit Everyone says they care, but show me they don’t Just want to be somewhere where I can be me Without being judged constantly, Judged for my feelings, clothes and even for being a Scorpio I can say a lot but I never rag on family I thought it’s supposed to be a safe place But it’s more like hell I want to go far But I don’t see myself making it past 24 If these are my last days, I just want to say fuck my immediate family For always making me feel alone Then telling me they understand just so they can see me shut up Do you really understand much? Do you understand the feeling of being judged 24/7? Most nights I hope I wake up in heaven When I wake up to these walls, I get even sadder Like do I even matter? Do god not want his son? Won’t be the first time thinking someone doesn’t want me Feel so defeated Just want to shed tears But I know it won’t make a difference I just want to disappear Almost 24 and I’m not even in the spirit of putting on a fake smile and act like I love the people around me Almost 24 and feel like I’m already dead
Author, Blogger, and Poet from Landover, Maryland. Looking to make my childhood dreams my reality. I’ll be sharing my random thoughts, speeches, storytimes, stories, and plenty of Poetry.
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