Mixed Feelings: Something I wrote in 2018 when I was having mixed feelings about life. It’s some old thoughts that’s not me anymore. I hope.
Mixed Feelings:
My mind used to be really fucked up, just going through it
Was feeling like I was about to lose it
I hear people say watch out for the snakes
Always turn to your fam to escape
But what you do when they are the snake
Every verse I ever wrote was a diss to the people that changed my diaper
Use to hate on me because I wanted to be a writer
Now they want to love me cause I’m getting higher
Had me wanting to grab a J and the lighter
Just to blow past everyday life
It felt like I was getting beaten up but I didn’t have any arms to fight
Found myself trying to schemes of ways to take my own life
I admitted this before but I want you to hear it again and again till you can’t get it out your head
I found myself wishing I run into the feds
And this black skin be enough for them to pull the trigger and send me straight to heaven
I would say hell but I don’t believe in it cause even I don’t like some of the stuff I create
But I would never make them feel the hate
I would always be at their side supporting them
Some of the things I wish I had
They say K I thought you were done with depression
If you didn’t know depression put a ring on it now I’m married to it
You’ll never know wassup with it
Until you meet it
My only advice is to never change
Because you don’t want this pain
You don’t want to be like me wishing you were the paper at a gun range
Every day I say I’m good but I’m not
Don’t worry about me I’m just having mixed feelings
