This is a real throwback to my first project to hit all streaming platforms back in 2018. This was one of my most emotional pieces on the emotional rollercoaster that was Poetic Gift. The end mixed with the hook provided by the producer just came together so perfectly.
Soul Sing:
Have you ever wanted to go somewhere
But you didn’t go because of fear
Have you ever seen the road to your dreams so clear
But you didn’t move because of fear
It’s so hard to steer
Steer my life when I’m driving this broke down car
I just want to go far
But the car I’m driving is something I refuse to move in
So many nights I wished it was the end
But I didn’t want to break only bend
Momma sees this as me wanting to blend
But it’s really about me not being comfortable in my own skin
I’m miserable but I keep my feelings in
Just hoping god let me see what happens after this surgery thing
Maybe it’ll bring back the old Kenneth
The one who used to smile
You know the one that was so happy before everything went wild
Before everyone did him so foul
You know I used to not care about my weight so much
Now I hate it so much
I’m just letting my soul sing
I been down in the dumps for so long
I been there for too long
I wish I could move
But I can’t go nowhere in this broke down car
I been down in the dumps for way too long
Way too long
Way too long
I just want to move
I just want to move
I just want to move
You gave me your name
Thought you was going to let me live my dreams
Instead I had to live your dreams
Now this box is where I stay at
This box is where I got to escape
Just to feel like I’m great
I get it your a parent
You did what you thought was right
But in the end, it wasn’t right
Cause now I live with all these regrets
All these emotions
I can’t even lie
Suicide has been on my mind
For the last 7 years
Every day I try
But I never prevail
Sometimes I feel like I’m just living in hell
I just wish I can get out
I think I would have been gone
If it wasn’t for these words that flow through my mind
That’s what poetic Gift comes from
It’s K. Exum
