My Mind II:
I just got so much flowing through my mind
I just got to get this off, this not a promotion
I know I said no more tracks filled with bad emotions
But this what Spoken Word all about
I got to stick to my guts no more doubts
I hear talks like why you so depressed
If you didn’t know depression been had me under arrest
This gift really gives me stress
Many long nights I’m up with no rest
I’m just trying to be the best
I’m competing with the past me
Listened to all my work and heard too much repetition
The same topic kept reappearing like a tradition
I got to put myself in a better position
I finally gained some recognition
Like Futuristic I’m on a mission
Been big for a long time had to get more nutrition
In the gym 5 times a week
On the mic practicing my technique
My next album going to be fire like Meeks
I use to think I had nothing to prove
But now I know that I got to show that my Spoken word is not ordinary
I will be legendary
I have been gone for a while but I will be damn if my career gets buried
Tape after tape I’m in a hurry
On the mic scoring like James worthy
I been caught up in the numbers, made me forget who I was
Took a couple of comments for me to understand that I had a love
The only support I need is from the ones up above
So much hate be on my skin, got to wash it off with some dove
People be addicted to hating on me like I was some tree
Starting to feel like John Cena cause I’m the one you can’t see
Enough of me talking my shit
My mind be really messed up sometimes
So many be flipping like a Motorola Razor in 05
Book almost done, can’t quit now got too much of a drive
Most times I be Stressing over my clothes
I don’t follow trends
I never try to dress like my friends
It’s just that I don’t like my clothing options
I can smile all I want
But I can’t front
I will be down sometimes
Maybe I need to talk to someone
I heard talking to the fam should be your medicine
But not me I could see that being the death of me
Nobody knows me and my mind but me
And if you think you can read me
Then you smoking some strong tree
But I just gotta brush off the hate and stay on the grind
My mind be doing back flips over these videos
Got me back blowing cheerios
With my videos
I want to be visual
Got a lot of stories that are fictional
But the video will make you get the point
It will hold everything together like a muscle joint
But I’m going to get through it
Working for me not trying to get signed
My life’s not perfect I still cry some nights
I have been fucked up since I went to Fairmont Heights
Every day I do this to escape the pain
Still waiting for my doctor to call so they can take away the pain
Cause The pain is still here
Still haven’t conquered my biggest fear
But it’s coming, maybe this year
You will know cause it’s going to jump start my career
I see the vision now it’s looking way more clear
I have been waiting for Jesus to take the wheel and steer
Now I say fuck that I got my license now I’m going to steer
I have to keep dropping tracks so my career never disappear
The biggest thing running through my mind is disappearing from the spoken word scene
All I ever wanted being for people to hear my inner thoughts since I was a teen
So many just chasing the green
I know the money is going to come with my dreams
So I’m going to continue to let out my inner thoughts
This is my mind part 2
Conclusion: A little long and a lot of rhymes but this was a poem I wrote obviously before a lot of things. It’s great to see how things came full circle. Like and comment and follow the blog for more poetry.
