This is just something I wrote while going through my journey of having surgery. Hope you are enjoying your Friday. As always, like, comment and follow this blog. Subscribe to my mailing list to stay updated. Follow me on IG @K.Exum
The process:
They told me 6 months
6 months turned in to 36 months
Going on with it cause I can’t put this idea to rest
I get a message every once in a while that says something like this
I have been seeing you work out like every day
How much you lose
I have been losing weight but it’s still not enough
This process is tough
So many times I just want to give up
But I’m stuck
Stuck between sitting and waiting for this weight to fall off
Or making it come off
It’s hard, to be honest
I got to change up my diet
I sometimes wish I could just put on autopilot
Only a few more to go and I’m struggling
In the gym every week, I got to keep hustling
I got to better myself so my mind can stop suffering
I’m just ready for the process to be over
It’s been a bumpy road to the top like jack when he was going up that hill
Got me wishing this weight will just disappear
Many times where I’m invited to this and that but my appearance holds me back
Don’t want to be seen, starting to feel worse as the days go by
Make me want to go back to my old ways and say goodbye
You wouldn’t understand how many times where I wanted to drop to my knees like Kaepernick
And say fuck this world but it’s my fault cause I dug this ditch
My mind is sick
And I like to let my mind unravel on this mic
I’m just ready for the doctors to call
Like Mr. Exum it’s time