This weeks Throwback Poem is called The Wait 2. The Wait one was posted Sunday. Click Here if you want to read that. But the back story to this piece is I was not supported by my peers and I released my frustrations in this piece. I also recorded this awhile back. Link to that here.
Man this feels like déjà vu
Dropped another book and didn’t get no love
The only love I got was from the man up above
Man that’s so sad
And you wonder why I’m so mad
When will I ever be glad
I guess when people are finally satisfied
My family don’t support me but I guess that’s classified
I’m glorified to the highest god that I will be the best
On this journey to make history
But I’m stuck on this mystery
Cracking down on me to go to school
I hate school
Too many rules
But I’m screwed
Living with people who want to control me
But they don’t see what I see
Like they got one eye
That’s fetty wap
It’s clear that I will never stop
Making people jaw drop
Making my family heart stop
Man that’s a heart attack
Every poem I write that’s a counterattack
I write for me and not money
To them that’s funny
They want me to go to school, to me that’s funny
They keep getting grumpy when I want something
It’s only so much I can take
They dancing around my questions like drake
When will I get a break
Made too many mistakes
I’m now picking up the pace
I’m on a chase
This is my dream
I’m full of steam
I’m taking it to the extreme
I’m dropping a book each month
Just to show my dominance
This is evidence
People have been stepping all over me now I’m finally awake
When I dropped the rise I thought it was going to be an earthquake
But no I’m told to wait
Well I’m waiting
And this shit is starting to get degrading
I’m fading
I have been doing this for too long
I’m coming strong
I didn’t have to wait when they was all on my jock
All I had to do was block
Until I cut that out and made the whole world stop
They only happy when I’m on that field
Talk to my pops he told me to go to school to please
Miss me with that pleasing people
I been trying to please them my whole life
Man now I’m finally letting it fly like a kite
This is my life
No more pleasing that had to cease
The haters is my feast
And I’m the beast
Just dropped the rise
They really want my dream to die
If my dreams die then I die
Without my dreams then I’m nothing
Been holding on to a grudge all my life
Really want to stab it with a knife
This shit ain’t nice
They keep telling me to go for what I want
When I try to write
They tell me to hold up pause rewind
Man my life ain’t no remote control
My heart is filled with coal
Cause I’m tired of people trying stop my grow
I’m never going to stop
If you don’t like it let your heart drop
It’s the wait
